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Name: Holly Hoodlum.
Gender: Female
Interests: There's a concept of me; some kind of blueprint sketched in your mind. But that's only illusory. The truth is, no one will ever know the true me.
Expertise: Being dull.
Occupation: street pharmacist.
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AIM:  headgearxholly
Member Since:
7/24/2006
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| Episode three: The Gift That Keeps Giving
Written by: Holly Caviness
Series Produced by: Shaun Rogers & Holly Caviness
Created by: Shaun Rogers & Holly Caviness
The Gift That Keeps Giving
I could have been anywhere else in the world and would have felt better than when I was at church with Jason. Before I met Jason I enjoyed church. It was my getaway car from my real life drama at home. Until Jason came along I used feel a sense of security by being at church, but after he stepped in my life that feeling was ruined. I would go to church every week hoping to feel the security I used to get from being there, but Jason was there to ruin it for me. I never felt so uncomfortable in my life and I hated him for it.
There is a lot of things I choose not to go into great detail about, because it hurts so much. Even though it's over I still feel the sting in my heart I did every time he'd touch me. I've spent so many restless nights thinking about how I could have prevented this. I barely sleep anymore and I hate him for it.
There was times when I was alone with Jason and everything was fine other times they weren't. I could always tell by how possessive Jason was being how my night would go. If I had about a foot of space that meant I was lucky, but I was usually not so lucky. Especially not one week in particular.
Jason approached me in a different way that week. He came towards me with a dilated look in his eyes; almost insane. He progressed toward me in an intimidating fashion. It almost looked like something from a scary movie. With his yellow skin, stringy and greasy hair, and lanky childlike body draped in a faded root beer shirt matching and twelve-dollar jeans.
His steps where quick and he was determined. He approached me "Holly, I need to talk to you alone...outside." I didn't reply I just followed. Once we were alone he looked, "Holly your amazing, I love ya."
Jason Park, I hope you burn in hell. No one will love you whenever I'm done.
I then noticed he was coming closer. He started leaning over, but I backed away. Jason was trying to kiss me. He looked down at me, "Come to my car with me, I got something for ya." I looked back at him. His eyes were gleaming and watery. I wondered exactly why he wanted me to go to his car with him. I felt more than uncomfortable. "No, no Jason...I don't feel comfortable going to your car." I said. He started pushing me in the direction of his vehicle, “Come on!” he ordered. He tried to get me inside, but thankfully someone was coming out to tell us church was starting. He looked into his car and started shuffling around for something. He pulled out a picture of him in his cap and gown and gave it to me.
The picture is titled, “Jason Park at 19”. That was three-years ago. I was thirteen.
This, THIS, is my revenge.
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| Season 1
Episode Two: Touch
Writer: Holly Caviness
Producers: Holly Caviness and Shaun Rogers
No matter how much you pray things are not going to get better. The power of prayer is useless when you're thirteen and all alone. I used to pray like someone was actually listening, but that was before I got tired of waiting on 'God.' That was before I took things into my own hands. That was back when Jason was only stalking me, it was before he ever touched me.
Where I was at this point was denial. That was when I still believed in a God. That was when I was stupid.
I was kneeling in the middle of the church floor praying while the church band was singing hymns; wondering if my good friend Kody was ever going to show up. He was late and he never was late. Moments later he began walking toward me with his shirt on backwards, skin wet, eyes dilated.
He snaked towards me with a slight grin on his face. "Where the hell have you been?" I said to him. "Before you start shouting, let me explain." He whispered in my ear, “I just had the best experience of my life," he said," Kate and I just had sex." I looked at him appalled, "Here!?" I asked, more obnoxiously than required.
He looked at me and said, “Can we not talk about this here?” he paused and looked around, “Where is he?” he said still looking. “Where is who?” I asked. “You know who, Holly. Where is Jason?” Jason is the guy who had been following me around the last few weeks. Jason, the guy I had been praying to God to leave me alone. “I don't know, I haven't seen him yet.” I answered. We sat for a moment.
“What is his problem anyway? Doesn't he know that you're only thirteen? Can he not see that this is illegal?” Kody was like a protector of me. He knew this and I knew this, the only difference was that I liked to pretend nothing was happening. “Listen, I'm scared for you. He's going to do something if you do not put a stop to this.” He repeatedly told me this, almost every week.
I would have put an end to it if I would have only known how. I never told on Jason for three reasons:
First, because I was scared Jason would act out violently; second, because I felt no one would believe me over him; third, because I never thought things would get as bad as they later did.
“He's a complete freak, Holly.” Kody would tell me. “He always follows you around like he owns you, like, you're his.” It was at the moment I felt, like, someone was watching me. I elbowed Kody in the stomach to note that Jason was probably behind us. I turned me head and there he was.
He was glaring at the back of Kody's head and then turned his gaze to mine. I could tell he probably heard everything Kody said, but he didn't confront him about it. “Hi, Holly.” Jason said in his frail snake-like voice. He stood next to me and began to sing with us and even when the church service ended he was still standing right by me. I didn't get a break until I left with Kody and some other friends to get a bite to eat, which coincidentally, Jason showed up at.
Kody had just began to explain things to me about what happened when Jason spotted us. I nodded towards Jason whom was walking in our direction. Kody looked at him, but didn't seem to care, he was still continuing his story. He even continued while Jason stand directly behind him, but Jason worked fast to stop that,
"Kody, I can't believe ya! How could ya defile yourself in a church? Holly doesn't need to know about that kind of stuff." Jason preached. "It's not like she isn't going to hear more about later on, from what I know, Holly already knows a lot about sex." Jason looked at Kody like he was going to cry and said; "This isn't anything a Christian would do, Kody." Kody looked at him and then replied; "Jason, it's not like you haven't done anything with a girl before. You know how it is." "No, Kody! I don't know what it's like. I've only held hands with one girl & I'm not thinking about going any farther then that."
My jaw dropped. He was eighteen-years-old and still hadn't even kissed a girl. Kody was in shock, as well. But the shock soon broke off when he began to laugh. Jason began to look more enraged and then asked me; "Can I talk to you alone, for a moment, Holly?"
I got up and started walking with him. He looked at me and asked, " Holly, you haven't done anything like that with a boy, right?" His eyes were glossy. "I just don't think you should be kissing... other boys." I noticed how he used the word 'other.'
I looked at him and gave him a dirty look and said, " Jason, I'm not going to talk about that with you." That was the first time I stood up to Jason. “No, Holly, you're going to tell me exactly what you've done.” He demanded and grabbed my arm and started pulling me outside. Kody most have been watching, because he rushed over to me when he noticed Jason was get pushy with me. “Get your hands off of her, Jason.” he said. Jason let go and finally left.
Shortly after that Jason left Kody and I were alone again. And that's when I was asked for the first time, "Are you and Jason dating? It seems like it." I looked at Kody mortified and said "Fuck no, are you kidding me? He just won't leave me the fuck alone." I paused and began to continue, "He told me I shouldn't be kissing 'other' boys."
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| Operation: Jason Park
Season 1: Episode 1
"The First Time"
I had just began attending CMBC when I met him. When I met a predator. My life quickly became a game of cat and mouse after that.
Looking back, I can almost remember that day, but not all of it. Some of it's cloudy, but I can remember how it felt. Cold. Dark. Profane. Vile. It was indeed freezing outside and I had a strange feeling in my stomach like something was to come. It was like I knew that my life was going to change before I even entered the building.
Every step toward the church my feet got heavier. I went into the room with all of the Youth. Everyone was very friendly and immediately welcomed me; it was my first time. I was introduced to just about everyone except for, him. By him I mean Jason. By Jason I mean pedophile.
I wandered around the Youth room and scoped everything out. I didn't even see Jason until later that night when activities started. On that particular Wednesday it was 'Edge Idol' which was a steal from the hit series 'American Idol.'
Several people sang, but none stood out until Jason got up to sing. His voice was shrill and although I can't remember what he sang I can remember how creeped out I was. He was starring at me throughout the whole time he sang.
I was so relieved when his song was over. He slowly drifted back into the crowd and I didn't see him, but then things just got worse. The next girl up was about halfway through her song and I felt a hot breath on the back of my neck. My hair stood up on its ends. I turned my head. It was him. He smiled & looked at me & said "Hi, I'm Jason Park." | | |
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